Got through Step 3 last night!! Woo Hoo!! This past St. Patrick's was my first totally sober in quite some time. It was never a big party night for me, I considered it amateur night. I am may have not started at 7 AM that day but I was usually the last man standing that night. Anywhoo, my sponsor had me say aloud a prayer to make it official. The prayer basically boils down to "Father I admit I can't change by myself and I surrender my will to You." The next steps will be identifying my defects of character as they are called and asking Christ to remove them. Then will come identifying the people I have wronged and making plans to make amends. That is the part I am looking forward to, taking the garbage out.
I was reminded by something I failed to do the other night for a friend. I am trying very hard to change but it served to remind me it isn't all going to happen at once. I have had many years of selfish living and twisted thinking that has laid down patterns. Don't get me wrong I am not excusing myself for acting like a douche but it reminded me "Easy does it".
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You can do it Steve. One day, one step at a time. Cheering for you! Jill
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