One word: powerful. There was a headcount of 2100 on Saturday night. That many people all gathered together with one thing in common. It was a total cross section of humanity: there were men,women, kids, black,white, red ,yellow, big small, handicapped, deaf, rich, poor, people with 1 day of sobriety all the way up to 60 years. The headliner speaker was a guy from California who has had a life that has been so tragic and heroic that it is too far out to be possibly made up. I met so many new people and saw so many familiar faces from the area.
The people in and aroind the convention were so nice, I felt like I belonged there. That is part of the reason why I drink and drug is because I have always felt out of place everywhere I go. All these poeple living a better life and giving a shit about each other, thats what I want to be a part of. When the meeting
ended with the everybody holding hands and reciting the Lord's Prayer the Love in the room was so palpable it sat on my chest with a warm glow.
I stopped by a local bar on my way home just to see who was out. I had a coke and a really really drunk guy was sitting next to me and telling me about his little grandaughter and how he had taught her to rollerskate backwards today. He was telling me that his granddaughter is the only thing that keeps him alive. I didn't know what to say. He offered to buy me pithcher of beer and it was pretty obviose he wanted someone to talk to. I excused myself and said no thanks for the beer and bid everyone a goodnight. On the way home I got to thinking that the guy was hurting and I just walked away without saying what I felt.. So I went back to the bar and tried to engage the guy in conversation, but he was really too wasted to talk e that soemone would have done the same for me in my time of need. This 12 step work and I have but begun to work the 1st step. But a fellow human being is hurting and it is my resposibilty to dos omething about it even if I only have 12 hours of sobriety behind me.
This is the tipping point.
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